o·ver·think

/ˌōvərˈTHiNGk/

verb

1. think about (something) too much or for too long.

I have to admit to being an overthinker. However, this definition does not go near far enough to communicate the egregious level of my personal brand of overthinking. The definition above makes it sound like a decision making process.

For me it means “Replaying that conversation. Imagining worst case scenarios. Reading between lines that were never written.” My brain hits the hamster wheel for hours — parsing words not said during conversations, establishing worst-case scenarios for those unsaid words, and going down rabbit holes that always end with me screwing everything up, alone forever, and emotionally unwell in a TJ Maxx parking lot.

But I’m working on it.

Tough Out.